I say another night writing out my thoughts
“Am I doing what I’m supposed to be doing?” My stomach almost in knots
“God, you’re providing but not in the way I expected”
“Is there a step I may have neglected?”
Life is a whirlwind
Things seem unpinned
Is there a method to what seems like madness?
More often then not I’m seeing sadness
I feel like I’m staring at pieces to a puzzle
But they seem unlink with no place to nuzzle
Am I supposed to pick up those pieces
Or wait on God’s mercy that never ceases
I don’t feel like there is a step to take
But to be faithful and let God mold and make
But what about the pressure to be and do more?
Is that from me? Or is it something I should explore?
Life is confusing and chaotic too!
Sometimes I wish God and I could have a face to face rendezvous.
One where we could hash out our next direction
And decide together what would be the best selection.
I know God is here and He is in charge
And He is the one who gives the discharge
But it’s not always easy to not know the right answer
But I should trust him otherwise worry becomes like cancer
So into your hands I commit my spirit
And my requests at your alter, I’ll leave it
Help me to be faithful, true, kind and caring
And help me to always be one whose sharing.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.