What does the Christian walk look like when…

I’m living in a world full of the unexpected. I live in a world of disappointments. I live in a world where mom’s of young children are diagnosed with stage four cancer. I hear of little babies not knowing if they will live one more day because the medical staff simply “didn’t have answers”. I live in a world where abuse is rampant. I live in a world where people can ruin other people. I live in a world where we are given a choice. And more often than not, the choice made was wrong. What then? Be happy? Slap a smile on my face? Think positive and all the darkness, sadness, pain, and discouragement will fade away and the sun will come out? 

, the sun doesn’t always shine.  The result we expected won’t always be the one we receive. Yet, the Son always is near. 

Life is full of the unexpected. It is full of disappointment. Disappointment in ourselves, our careers, our family and our friends. So what then? What do we do then? When we feel unable to help ourselves – what then? When we are weak – what then? When our hearts feel like they’ve been thrown into a food processor what then? 

I’m reminded of two words:        Jesus wept

The shortest Bible verse and quite possibility the most powerful. I’ve skim over it too often without catching the significance of it. Jesus, the one who created the whole world. The one who created life, joy, peace; wept! 

He suffered! He lost friends, family, trust in people, and even his very life.

God sent Jesus knowing he would suffer. He sent Jesus knowing we would suffer. 

In the times of deep wounds, unanswered questions and puddles of tears, know that the reason Jesus may be quiet is because He is weeping for you. He is weeping with you. 

He never told Mary and Martha, don’t worry – you’ll get over it (although he knew they would). He didn’t say this will eventually be something that I want to use in your life (although I’m sure He did). Jesus said I am the resurrection and the life. He kindly reminded Martha that although she may not have understood things now, He was there! He then asked where they laid Lazarus. Then he wept. 
Twice in this passage it says Jesus was deeply moved. 

There is another passage similar to this in John 20:11-16

Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.

They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”

“They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I DON’T KNOW where they have put him.” At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”

Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”

Jesus said to her, “Mary.”

Imagine Jesus calling you by name? Imagine in the disappointments and the pain, he says, *your name* and says, I’m here. I made you. I knew this was going to happen. He’s not far off. Although Satan will try to convince us he is. He’s not too busy fixing everything else, he’s standing beside me waiting for me to cry out to him and if I don’t, he gently says my name. 

He is here 

He stands in the pain 

He is here 

And evil will abstain 

He is the Lord 

Maker of heaven and earth 

He’s guarding me with His sword

Causing in my life rebirth 

He is here 

Not weary from my tears

He is here 

He’s the solution I can adhere 

So in the midst of the unexpected 

My Lord Jesus Christ is my expected 

He calls my by name 

He’s not ashamed and even created my frame 

He counts the hairs on my head 

He never lets my food run out 

He knows when I lay my head on my bed 

And His love for me can never be put out. 

3 thoughts on “What does the Christian walk look like when…

  1. Dear Christie,

    Thank you for sharing from your heart. It has blessed me to see you continually point back to our Lord who is our Rock in the midst of life’s rolling ( raging!) sea of questions. I vividly remember asking the same questions when I was in nursing school and a friend committed suicide and watching others die of cancer etc. So many questions … but God is there. I do love your poem at the end . Is it one of yours? I copied it to keep. I am in the midst of writing a lesson on Noah and the flood. It has touched my heart when I read the verse about the Lord’s heart being broken over the sinfulness of mankind. And we are reading Ezekiel right now (after finishing Jeremiah so double dose!) and the anguish of the God at his children’s idolatry . The allegory written in ch 16 is so strong. And the wonderful words ” I will make an atonement for you” and he describes the restoration of Israel. He has made an atonement for Israel and us and for all the sin of the world in Jesus Christ! Wow it has been my heart fuel today!

    Thanks for sharing and keep on Christie ! You are glorifying God in the midst of these days of being “in between” . I remember when your mom came back from Turkey without her husband and waiting for David’s birth. She told me that the words to Keith Green’s song ” when I hear the praises start my child my grace will rain upon you” . And she chose to praise God in those days of her “in between “. She didn’t know why God had allowed what had happened and she didn’t know the future but she praised God in the between. That has always been an example to me to always praise God in the hard times and in the unknown. You are being the same example to many now. May God continue to bless your writings for His glory!

    Love you dearly!

    Aunt Jeanette

    On Thu, Sep 8, 2016 at 11:13 AM, Not Born Fearless wrote:

    > learningtobefearless posted: “I’m living in a world full of the > unexpected. I live in a world of disappointments. I live in a world where > mom’s of young children are diagnosed with stage four cancer. I hear of > little babies not knowing if they will live one more day because the > medica” >

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    1. Dear Aunt Jeanette,
      Thank you for sharing your heart and encouragement. I would love to read your lesson in Noah! God is so incredible my gracious to me. Time and time again He’s shown up when I needed Him – which is every day haha! Thank you for taking the time to write. I always enjoy hearing from you… And please feel free to use the poem at the end :)! That’s what I wrote it for! Love you tons!


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