I Am Weak


Some days feel overwhelming. There are times in our lives where some days seem so daunting; yet, other times, we feel like we can take on the entire world! 
Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmed. In fact, just the other day, I fought to get up and face the day. Some days it feels as if the enemy is screaming at me with his lies laced in a smidge of truth and jabbing at all my flaws. I woke up feeling defeated. I know the Christian walk is not a cruise ship. But it is more like a battle ship parked at the gates of hell. 

So, I put on a few sermons, then some praise music and was about to mow the lawn when I got a text from my mom: “want to have lunch?” to which my reply was: “yes”

We ate and talked and talked and ate until she had to go back to work. My heaviness didn’t feel as heavy. I got home did some needed tasks and started mowing. I was still battling in my mind but kept asking God for help. 

By the time I finished the lawn, ate supper and evening had set it.  I felt like I was a victor again. I was reminded it’s not how you start the day, but how you finish. 

Every few hours it feels like I am reminded of my fragility, inadequacies and inabilities. The truth is: I simply cannot live without God. I cannot speak truth without God. I cannot breathe without God. I cannot love without God. I cannot have hope without God. I cannot go a day without God. I cannot be an overcomer without God. Apart from Him I can do NOTHING. One of my favorite quotes is: 

I can’t. He never said I could.

He can. He always said He would. 

I am so very grateful for my mom, sisters and friends. I’m thankful that I am never alone. I’m thankful for God and His infinite patience and understanding. This life may come with its challenges, but God has conquered them all and when I am weak THEN I am strong!

If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, then thank Him for breaking your heart. – Oswald Chambers

It’s not how you start. It’s how you finish! 

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